sad

Tuesday, October 04, 2005


When do you feel sadnesS? When u have alot of things in your mind, but you cant say it out. When u have no extreme close friends around u. When u're thinking too much. When u have done nothing at all eventhough exams is near. When u knew that there's no more time.

It's common for people to have "unspeakable" troubles. It's more saddening that not all troubles are expressable. I don't even know what i'm talking about. Maybe, i just need someone to talk to.

I've changed my nick to "unappreciated", reason being, i felt so. Despite wishing to contribute, i've tried to do what i can do help. I stick with deadlines despite of my hectic no life life which is ever boring. The only fun thing in my life right now is that i have family to watch movie with. Sadly, mum n her friend suddenly go get a shop, so that means, no more time for movie. My another recreation is TV. I spent most of my time at home watching tv, not doing any work. My last recreation, maybe tuition. At times, i felt that only when it's during tuition that i felt appreciated. I felt smart. I felt superior. I seldom got that kind of feeling anywhere anymore. At times, i regret. I should NEVER have studied in NTU. Maybe things would turn out differently. maybe...

alot maybe... but nv being sure~! Maybe my faith is fading.

Lately, i've been looking for a bible verse. Anyone there that could help me with it? I wondered.. which part in the bible said that we should not gamble~! i only know that since i became i christian back in 2001, i have stopped gambling. Even when it's in Chinese New Year. Reason being, coincidentally, when i became a christian, everytime i gambled, i lost. Before that, i won every year. So.. throughout the years.. i've been v obedient, in term of gambling.

Whatever it is... wish my sadnesss would be washed away soon, through the word of Christ.

My son, pay attention to what i say; listen closely to my words. Do not let them out of your sight, keep them within your heartl for they r life to those who find them and health to a man's whole body.

Proverbs 4: 20-22

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