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Thursday, October 06, 2005


Sadness brings about lessons. What u hear might not be what u want to hear n vice versa. But upon thorough thought to what u do not want to hear, which might be the fact, u might be able to comprehend the situation~!

I'm well and cheerful once again~! God dropped by to talk to me, and to teach me something new. He also gave me the drive for upcoming similar situations~! He calmed me down, and allow me to think rationally. He patiently explained to me the situation. He's indeed always there for me.

Ms Q n Ms K (btw, the dun know each other) commented on things bout ... my efficiency. I was the kind of person that would always wait for instructions to be given, before i do anything. I never knew when to take initiative. I relied on people too much. And two days, upon hearing this, i was mad at first. How dare they say that of me~!... But.. it was the truth~!

Although bible always say, to not bother too much about how people look at us or think of us ( eg.backstabbing), we should consider why people said that. There must be a reason. It may be a misunderstanding, or there might be some truth in it. Whether or not it's truth or misunderstanding, it's up to oneself to analyse on his/her own behaviour.

This is the message i got from God: If u want to prove to others that what they said is not the truth, u have to show them your capability~! U cant just SAY u want to do something, yet, did not do it~!

So, i got down to work. I msged Ms Q, and told her i wanted to do something by myself. I don't want to be asked to finish something that is not done by me from the start. I want to start something by myself. I got down to work. I did alot of email-ing. I got some reply. I was happy. At night, i got a job~! To do something for today. Instead of just doing what is asked, i did more, wishing to make that something look nicer and not plain. I accomplished it, with the sacrificial of undone homework, but, i was happy~! I did something finally. I felt that i BELONG~!

God message.. Hmm.. actually... what i've wanted to hear, it not from just anyone. It's from God. It's like, your friend might tell u that economy is not gd, and u don't believe it. U asked another friend, and upon hearing the same thing, u still don't believe it. It's until when your professor told this fact to u, that u realy listened. It's like. Human wants to hear from people with higher authority or people with exceptional wisdom~! People like God.

Listen, listen to me, and eat what is good, and your soul may live. I will make an everlasting covenant with you, my faithful love promised to David.
Isaiah 55: 2,3

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