single hood

Sunday, February 19, 2006


Friends all got their partner... Friends leave friends... Lonely days are coming...

Yesh... more n more of my friends are attached... Somehow... maybe, that's what caused the 5/6th time patching ... haha... But no worries.. it's NO MORE again. Find it very weird. I felt comfortable around him... but... i don't have any special feeling. Maybe this thingy spread too long le.. that's y... being comfortable around him is normal.

After thinking it through somehow, i felt the need to tell him e truth, so i just did that, and viola... break again. Once again, i'll promise that there'll be no more another patch. hahaha... That seemed to always be what i said. What to do... he always came back. I never once approached him to patch. Somehow, for this short period from 6th Feb to 18th Feb, i bought him a small renoma wallet ( actually it's a card holder ) and i also did a cross stitch for him. Haha. I don't actually want that back though.. haha. somehow, need that to repay him for always giving me some money. It's time i return some to him, although it's rather indirectly. hmm.. i also gave him cookie for V day. He did not really like eating cookie though.. but too bad. haha.. It's not entirely baked by me.. but more like by ling n olive. i only help stir e ingredient together, then i left for tuition.

Thinking back.. it's time i stop this nonsense. I always find excuse like try lor.. but deep down inside.. it's actually that i wanted someone to be there for me ba... see too many happy couple le. But then, i would overcome this. I would trust God entirely~! He planned my whole life for me, it's just that i have not seen the will... I would experience it in time.. and i would not go on doing stupid thing anymore. Meanwhile, i have to keep my faith high.. Single hood is not gonna bring me down.

Advantage of being single: I get to spend LOTs n LOTs of time at home sleeping and watching tv. and of course to study. I get to have time to myself. I get to just focus my attention on bible reading, bible study, teaching tuitions, and handling tutorials and projects. There's some gd encompasses in all that. I knew that when the time is right, God would arrange someone for me.. that's y i don't have to worry about anything. Not now, not never.

I must shift my thoughts away from "SELF"... hmm.. think about others.. maybe i'll have a better life this way. Alot thingy to accomplish. Listed below are some what i can think of now.

1. Get Laffy a hubby. Hmm.. gt to know one owner through wholivenearyou. We only chat bout doggy online.. maybe a chihuahua might be my corgi's hubby. Wahaha.

2. Maintain e faith level of a friend of mine.

3. Focus on how to teach my pri sch kids.. Want them to improve. Somehow, felt a great sense of achievement to one my kid. Taught him for a yr plus le. He somehow used my technique to remember words, more efficiently, and he's GOOD~! haha. Proud of him.

4. Teach my cousin, Emily, efficiently too. Sec sch easier to teach cos maths technique still being used by engineering student. Haha. imagine looking at differentiation n integration since sec 4? Now is partial differentiation n ALOT WAVES.

Guess the only prayer for myself is that, i could fulfil all.. and to get wisdom and guidance from God.. N.. unwanted thoughts, BE AWAY from me. hee.

In gd or bad time, he's there to cheer u on... to guide and to bless. He is the one and only God.

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