love

Monday, February 12, 2007


What is love? Is it hard to get what u wished for? Am i asking for too much?"

Quarrels follows by quarrel. Guess not all guys would appease gers who are flaming. Guess staying angry would just kill the relationship. Let go of the anger... and accept what it is, that seems to be the only solution.

Things between me n Him isn't that good lately. I thought meeting him less, meant lesser frictions between us, but guess i expected more.

When i lose my phone, and i said i wanted to get a new one straight, he borrowed me money without question. When i told him i need a library card to borrow book, but i cant apply for one with my own name as mine had huge debts, so he made me a card. When i was angry at the person who took my phone, he tried to calm me down and asked me to make the necessary phone call first. So what is the problem??

Gentleness. I yearned for a sweet msg from him. I wished he would hold my hands not only when i approached him. I wish he would care more for me when i'm sick.

What i got: No sms unless i msg him or when we are supposed to meet. I would have to hold his hands by myself if i wanted to hold his. If i'm sick, he wun ask too much, just tell me to take care and that i should noe how to take care of myself. No kiss unless i asked from him. Materials... that is what he can provide.

I wanted to earn enough and pay him everything. I don't want to owe him anything. I don't want him to provide me with material stuff. I dun need it. I wanna be independent. I wish to trade all the materials with love. One that i could see, and feel and hear... possible? I don't know.

Work has been weighing me down. Wish my life would be peaceful again.

2/12/2007 11:56:00 AM|