updates n confessions

Monday, July 09, 2007


updates: I'm broke. Tuition money was owed. Dare not remind the MOTHERS that 8th lesson was over long ago. Sigh. confession: to my dearest...

The dilemma of a tutor-tuition money owed but mothers not reminded. Or was it just me? Hee.

Life for me is the same. Nothing exciting.

Last Saturday, met my JC friends for steamboat at Marina to celeb Jun's bday. It was also the day sharon n guys finally saw my darling. Hee. Darling n me arrived late, but we were not the latest. Mao n Paul were the latest. Darling managed to get the car from his dad, and of course, i drove it. Was super lucky to get a lot just in front of the seat sharon they all got~!

Another lucky encounter. NDP rehearsal on that day too. Fireworks were just in front of us. We just sat down and admire it. Pretty, but still cant be compared to the one i saw last year at France, in front of eiffel tower, for their national day aka bastille day.

After that, the gers suggested KTV, so we drove to cine. Price they enquired : $32. Super ex. So, change of plan. We drove them to Jun's house for mahjong, then me n darling drove for supper at the prata stall. Asked darling a few questions... hmmm... wonder whether his answer is real. Hee.

But, being a shy me, who dare not say it in front of darling when he asked... maybe, i din really felt for darling on the day we went west coast n bird park hill. Maybe, feelings already developed before that unknowingly. I always love meeting up with him as a buddy. Was it purely friendship... i thought so.. at first. But, i DID wonder how would it be like if this buddy of mine became my bf. My view then "he would be such an ideal bf. Someone i always dreamt of, but would be impossible to have. I ain't that lucky."

I was super sad when Ryan said and did whatever he did to me. That's y i slimmed down, but gained back in e end. But not knowing y, darling provided me with great support just being there. Sms-es between us always left me laughing to myself, and causing others to think i'm really mad. Msg-es between ryan n me were nv like that. Nothing sweet. Maybe just first 3 days of sweetness and that's it? Between me n darling, nv once not sweet.

At times, my mind would wonder off.. would always imagine the same words darling used on his ex. yea i know.. it's e past. Hmm.. shall not let my mind drift on to the past. Shall look forward to the future. Life with darling. Getting my degree. Having own family.

And, having no photos from the steamboat as Ms Sharon Tan Lay Peng haven sent us, shall put more darling's photo. Hee.. having-nothing-to-do me put e photos taken during last week together, and presenting here~!