conversation~~

Monday, December 20, 2004


Misunderstanding can occurs within conversation. Maybe it's because of form of communication like phone or sms? Or maybe it's because of our perspective. We may c a casual joke as mocking or teasing, and maybe, arguments follow not long after. It's like, different people can read the same bible passages and get the different meaning which applies to their life.

This few days,especially yesterday,i have a great quarrel with my parents, regarding the car. I am a impatient person, i admit, and i always wish to be able to drive out for my convenience. I blamed my mum and dad for being biased as they let my bro drove out straight after he got his license. I hurl hurting words at them. I cried. I was disappointed. Those evil thoughts came in, telling me to die so that they would feel guilty. But despite all my yellings and complainings, my dad woke early to drive me to the combined service at 8am. In the car, i was muttering whatever complaints i have. They ignored me.

When i reached the church, and we started singing christmas songs and praises, i cried. I was suddenly filled with guilt. I am ashamed of my behaviour. I don't know what got into me. I became a selfish brat. Reason being: My perspective in things.

I knew my parents KNEW my driving skill is not that good. They don't want their car and ME to get injured. They are trying to protect me somehow, and at the same time, it's a matter of trust too. When it comes to money stuff, trust intervenes. Dad always said, Can you pay for e car damage if u have an accident? I take the meaning directly,as in, he care bout the car more than he care for me. I made a conversation became an argument~!

Yesterday has been a great day for me at church. After the combined christmas service, i went for the meeting with the deacons and pastors as i am going to be baptised next wk. I'm gonna make my faith official. I don't really know how to start with the interaction, so, i just sat there. Jocelyn's kids entertained me. They filled me in with the details of saturday's pot luck which i've missed due to working. They told me all the stuff they played and the jokes. I have lots of laughs with them. Then Pr Wesley came, and he started with the casual conversation on what's my school and stuff like that. The conversation then leads to bible study IN NTU itself. It sounds fun. I then found out that there's alot more people in Glory(Glory presbyterian is my church name) who are in NTU. He asked me to join them. Then, i even told him i was from pei hwa, and he invited me to join their GB. It's always kinda a wish for me to want to serve my pri sch as well. It's like a dream come true.

See... conversation makes my day bad, then good again. I am sure it's God's doing. I make it a point to control my temper, and to practice patience from yesterday onwards. Conversation with the kids make me feel less left out. Conversation with Pr Wesley makes my dream comes true. It's my perspective in those conversations. If i have a pissed mood, i'll find the kids n Pr Wesley irritating. But, the holy spirit touches me... and moves me in the way i should be moved. I'm looking forward to next Sunday... My official baptism day...


12/20/2004 01:51:00 PM|