one last chance

Wednesday, May 02, 2007


Next Monday is our anniversary, but it might also be a day we break up.

A day which is supposed to be happy, turned out a day which i might cry so hard that my eyes would become swollen again.

He wants freedom. He prefers to meet his friends, than to see me. He prefers to have his own time. He lost the passion. Is there still love? I don't know. Only he knows.

This weekend, we are going to Sentosa. We booked a resort. If the passion is not found yet... It might mark the end of our relationship. There might be no more future.

I'm not sure i have love for him. I only know for sure he cant give me what i want. I need a caring guy who would bother about me. Who would ask how i am, who would be worried about me when i'm sick. I need someone who would be there, and say sweet things at time. I know he's not the one, yet i compromised. I tried to do whatever sweet thing is possible. I surprised him on his bday by putting chocolates and a diary on his bed, so when he got home, he saw the gift. I made him something special on those special days like v day, n bday. I see to his needs, n i'm taken for granted.

Knowing all these, i still wanted to hang on. I tried my best so as his family likes me. I tried my best, to send him to work as and when he needed.

I failed terribly. My heart is hurt. Deep inside, i have no faith in my weekend. Is it gonna be the lasT? I wish not, but i suspect otherwise. Pray that i would be able to pick myself up.

I don't want to go into any more relationship.