I pray

Monday, December 24, 2007


Tuitions and FYP.. and falling sick... and other stuffs.. all this has weigh me down... learning to not rely on myself.

Tuitions has resumed. I finally got some money. But, i lost my first pay - $150. SObz. Learn to deposit my money as soon as i get it. I pray for less carelessness.

FYP wise.. started ok for one week. Slacked off for a very long time. Started to play maple story.. and i spent more time playing that then doing what i should be doing. I pray for control.

Fell sick recently. Cough, sore throat, flu and fever. What more can i ask for? Fell from chair while playing captain ball. Nice~! I pray for health.

The bad feeling i have felt for a long time came back to haunt me. Of cos it's bout BGR. Dunno y.. silence between us scare me. We walk together, separately, without talking. It's just strange to me. We meet almost everyday. That may be the reason. Many conflicts and clashes of idea. I want to keep a distance. I must be firm this time. I have to complete what i must. I wanted to go back to church. I want to serve. Time.. what have i spent it on for most of my time. Do i really have no time to serve? Or is it plain excuse. We need to each live our own life. I cant have my life circling him. What bout the people who bring me up? I need to go back. Unsure of the future, and knowing it's not up to me to decide.. i'll just let God lead me on what is to come. Whatever the ending.. i know it is planned. Whatever bad stuffs that have happened, happened for a reason. A reason for us to learn, and to grow from it all. It's not for us to brood over it and affect us for our entire life. I pray for firmness, and faith.

In this festive season, i pray for happiness for my family, friends, ex-colleagues, students, and every christian who celebrate this day. A new year is gonna end, i pray for a fresh start.

12/24/2007 10:29:00 PM|