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Monday, May 10, 2004


Since 'A' level examination ended last yr Nov, i've not touched my books at all. I used to be kinda pro in maths, but now, when u ask me any simple question, there's a high chance that i'll not be able to answer it. I miss school. I miss wearing school uniforms. I miss the feeling of studying with friends, n the reassured feeling that i'm NOT alone. Alone.. this topic came again. Argh.. trying to avoid being such a loner. Aunt said i always act cute, n that i SHOULD behave like a 19 years old. Argh..

In school, friends got used to me being MYSELF. Now.. those frequet outings with friends make me even more lonely. Aunt usually CORRECT me.. i'm nv right. I'm always e one that needed to change. I miss hanging out with people my own age. I miss hanging out with them OFTEN instead of e rare outings.

I got a letter from NTU, stating that i got a place in triple E, n that i have to reply by 17th May. At first, i'm kinda sad that NUS don't offer me a place, but somehow, i guess NTU is okay. Most of the buildings are together, which meant, less walking. E campus is at Jurong, which meant.. it's kinda near to where i stay. Argh.. Gonna be stuck at e west area for another 3 to 4 years.. I found another difference in NUS n NTU engineering - NTU have a sch for all type of engineering, but NUS have engineering as a faculty, n different engineering are classified as department. Somehow, I guess it's kinda true that NTU's engineering is better, as they put more emphasis one that?! I think i'll reply e NTU thingy within this week. Sad sad.. cant get into NUS le..

Ah.. there's a change of blogger's layout wor.. hmm.. still, it's kinda formal. I don't know what happen to tagboard.. my newer message got deleted, n e older msgs were out, which meant, i have to delete everything. ANyway, tagboard is kinda extra.

Erm.. think orientation would start on JULY.. looking forward to it. I need to know some new friends~! I'm bored to death with my current life. TV n computer became my life now. How bored can that be? Trying to make my life more interesting by learning to drive. How cool~! N how poor can i get. I'm still in debt, n i just remembered i owe Olive money too. Sigh.. As a child became adult, money became a big part of one's life. Go out, need money. Enjoy day, need money. Learn stuff, need money. Travel, need more money~! Schooling, need more money. Work, might not get money. Somehow, as i grow older, my family gets poorer. Happiness & Money.. what do u choose? Happiness eh? But if u're scrapping through life with barely enough money, how do u enjoy life? Illness came in, money needed. Y do my family gets poorer as i grow older? IT cause of dad's stroke a few years back. Every family has their own difficulties...

I've stray off too much. Guess it's because i thought of something Qianni told me bout Olive. Olive, if u're reading this, i'm so sorry for not being understanding enough. Take care.. n i'll pray for u...

5/10/2004 03:13:00 PM|