Being Strong~~

Friday, June 25, 2004


E definition of strong here, referred to hiding feelings, n showing ya whatever emotions with smiles n laughter. Reason being, not wanting others to show pity on u and don't really want people to worry bout u.It's really tough hiding whatsoever feelings.. so .. blog comes handy at this point.

Lately, quite some stuff happened in my life. There's activity after work usually, mostly, it's just jogging. For this week till today, my mon, tues n fri after-work time have been spent on jogging n walking my dearest dear. On weds, it's e celebrating of Qianni's belated 19th bday. On Thurs, it's going bbdc to take my driving practical. Times kinda pass fast when there's stuff to do. But then, usually, most of e depressing stuff happened in e mist of all those activities. It don't take long for a sad thing to happen, n somehow, it usually takes longer to enjoy a day. Sigh...

Every time when things don't go e way i wish it'll turn out to be like, i'll tell myself.. "It's okay. Try not to think so much. ".. but thoughts are hard to control. I tell myself to be strong.. n glad enough, usually, when i'm with friends, i'll be able to act as if nothing ever happened before. I don't know y.. but i don't really feel like sharing. At some times, sharing is like complaining.. n maybe.. wishing to hear comforting words which think IN MY pt of view. I wanted to be independent.. To cure my own heartbreak. To let time heal my heart. To let God enter my life fully n take control of it. I'm really sick of controlling my tears, n having no control of my thoughts. Glad July is a busy month with lots of orientation camp n lots of driving practical too~!

Sch would commence on 26th July N i could finally use my brain to think of other stuff n know more new friends. I am finally gonna officially be an Undergrad! YippeE~! Wish i could still stay strong ..

6/25/2004 11:11:00 PM|