all messed up

Wednesday, March 15, 2006


I have different sleeping time everyday... everything is so messed up. And with more than 5 hrs of slp, i felt real tired still. Where's my 4 hrs body clock?

It's been real bad. Now i'm tired constantly. Exercise don't help. It makes me more tired. Most of the time when i was awake, i would be spending more time struggling to open my eye. I gave in to my lazyness, and here i am now, having less time, and not having done much studying~! I hate that... Where's e hardworking me? I should be awake.. I MUST be awake. I must push myself even harder! I must watch less tv. I must buck up.. and i MUST read e bible~! There's so many things to do, but so little time. Despite cancelling most tuitions, it doesn't seem to help much. I still don't seem to have more time. It seems like i slacked more than anything else.

Felt read bad. Real tired. Where's my faith as well. Down e drain. Thought of catching up with bible study.. but failed. did only 1 since sun~! My focus seem to be wrong. I must wake from my dream. I must satisfy my NEEDS b4 my wants. I must throw away all desire. I must make myself to have some-kind-of-a no life for one month~! Yes~! i must do just that~! Let my life be around books and bible~!!

As i strayed away from His Words, faith decrease, strength decrease. I need get back all that. Shall do my quiet time now~!

Reflection is a need to self evaluate~!

3/15/2006 06:04:00 AM|