xia's story

Tuesday, May 02, 2006


Is it so difficult to be loved?

Xia is a normal girl, attending a normal school and scoring less than normal result. Xia is just a simple girl who wished to be loved and to experience the feeling of it. But, what Xia gets is always a one sided love thingy where xia only contributes, but gets no return. Xia just wanted romance, and not money to pay for this n that. Xia just wants people to care for her, and to love her and to show her the love. Xia always fails to get this...And this is the intro of xia's story.

Xia's had an experience of many many many breaks and patches with her ex, and every first few days of those patches, xia would wish for honeymoon period. Xia just wanted those sweet little message with "i miss you" and "i love you". Xia got none. Xia's ex just treat her as if they are old couples. Yes, they have been having this patch break thing for many yrs, but xia still want romance. Xia got none. Xia lost her feelings for him. Xia cant find it back anymore. But, xia found a new guy that gave her feeling.

When xia finally got official with the guy she likes, again, she only contributes, but gets no returns. Xia got no msg like "miss" or "love". Xia always meet up with the guy, but being out together seems as if only xia is making an effort to be close. Xia tried to hold hands, but e guy din react. Xia tried to be close, but it's like... xia being cheap. Argh. Xia knew the feeling e guy had for her is not strong, but Xia just wishes it'll all work out, but deep down inside, xia doubt so. Xia knew it's a forbidden relationship, mainly because he let xia go away from Christ.

God gave xia choices. For once, God did nothing to stop xia from dreaming. He lets what xia dream of come true, but let xia feels how's it like. Xia felt it, and got real demoralised. Xia hate it. It's only been a few days and xia don't want to give up. But at the same time, xia don't want to be so cheap. Xia don't want to take all the initiative. All xia wants is to be loved. Xia wishes for a fairytale love story.

Is it so hard to have a 2 sided love relationship? If this don't work out, xia is gonna throw her heart to God. Xia is not going to go against His wills. Xia just wanted to suffer less. Xia is just a simple girl with a simple dream.

Xia wishes to be herself... and not be swayed by feelings...and this is the story of Xia...

5/02/2006 07:18:00 PM|