so far bad

Tuesday, April 18, 2006


I deserved what i got... but i'll repent... really~!

So far, exam was bad. I don't think i did well in either of the paper. I studied too late, and during the short period of studying, i slacked alot... i've rethink alot.. what have i been doing? Thinking i'm smart enough to handle? Thinking i have enough knowledge to handle the exam? In actual fact, i don't know anything. I panicked at the last minute. I did not do tutorials and i went for minimum number of lectures. Bad...

A strong feeling tells me that i'm gonna fail my digital electonics module. I forgot a hell lot of stuff, and i did not know many thingy too. It's the same feeling as what i felt after my first attempt on the chemistry paper. Back then, i failed. Thinking that that's gonna be the last module i would fail, i'm wrong. Argh.. Pray hard there's alot of moderation being done.

Study time... did i really make full use of it. Usually, when i studied with christine they all, i would look around... try to stay awake.. and waste lotsa time.. Bad.. How much time have i spent studying? I've been wasting so much time. Tuition might be another factor.. but i cant push all away.. because i still have to pay for my own bills, transports and foods. I need money to come in. And i also need to save up to go France. There's a high possibility that i got the france summer program. I got through the first round, and upon asking the counter people, she told us most probably it's ok le. So.. shall wait for the final letter only. Right now, vexed over the money issue. I need to go around borrowing money. Sigh. Wish all would go well.

I need to go more towards God.. I need to buck up~! I am v motivated to study now. People who did not go lecture and tutorials can get A.. y? because they really PIA before exam.. i'm not smart like them, but til now, i believed hard work pays off. I shall work real hard, and knowing i have to spend time on tuition, i'll have lesser time, and i must make better use of whatever time i have~! I'll survive well!

With the right attitude, i believe i could stay awake and study with FOCUS~!

4/18/2006 01:55:00 PM|