cleared

Friday, March 31, 2006


Thinking that it might be really really painful to let go of my sinful desire, i'm wrong. With God's power, i felt so refreshed and new. A new creation~!

As mentioned before in my previous entry... "hall closet" is a closet we hid in our heart. It's some dark secrets we don't want anyone to know. And not only that, we knew that it's wrong to even keep that. Most of the time, we would choose to ignore it, but not clear it. It's something that we don't want to let go of, yet knowing it's wrong to keep it.

Just today, somehow, some terrible things was told to me in a extreme nice way. Thinking that i would die from it all, but i did not. Glad i phoned Eileen. Chatted with her, and felt damn good after it. After that, chatted with Olive, the first person who knew everything, and i already felt better. Hehe. Eileen did more help than Olive. Hohoho.

Anyway... i felt refreshed. Felt like a new person. Felt that finally something is off my shoulder. Felt cleaner. I got no hall closet now. It's thrown away. Maybe it's kept in a memory book i kept in my heart's "study room", but i won't flip it that often to refresh my memory. I learnt something from it all. I learnt the danger too. I'm glad i'm not alone. And i have attached-friends who are there to listen to me. I felt better than ever, and even more cheerful, and somehow i did not expect that i'll feel this way so fast. I don't want this feeling to be short-lived.

I'm so glad i'm still walking in the path God created for me. I'm so glad God is omnipresent and he let me felt his presence. I'm so glad not only do i have friends, that i have a divine God too. I'm so glad i went through it all despite the pain and suffering i went through. I'm so glad for once in my life time, i experienced so many mental war with the holy spirits in me. I felt so glad i got defeated and i was brought back to reality. I'm so glad whatever happened happened, and i'm still surviving well...

From now on, i would not stray that far. I would study hard too and think of stuff which is not important. I would only allow peer study pressure onto me, and not other not important stuff. I have to REMEMBER i love studying~!!!

What we want might not be the best for us, as we might not know ourselves as much as we think we do.

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