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Thursday, February 26, 2004


It's too late for regrets... i miss my job N my colleague. I wish to go back to work again... but, it's impossible to. People would say that i'm capricious (did i use the word correctly? i'm not sure. I got to know this word when i studied for my SAT.) I miss my friends. I cant sleep last night because night time is meant for work time. I got tired in the afternoon, as it's usually the time i slept. Thinking back.. i don't mind OT now. I don't mind working for the whole month without break. I don't mind the night working hours. I don't mind all the things i minded that results from me quitting early. I love the job. I love the time. I love the fact that i could listen to radio even at work. I love that pay. I don't even mind working for years if the people there stay on. I started to regret. I felt like crying. I miss everyone, n i'm worried that they'll forget me soon. I'm worried that they'll forget about my name, n my existance. I don't want that to happen. I'm depressed, sad, sorrowful n full of regrets. I love there too much to leave it now. I've grown used to it. Used to the surroundings, the people, the work, the breaks N the working hours. Can i have all that back? I doubt so. Sigh~

My colleague called me at 6+am during the last tea break. I was so happy to hear their voices. I was sleeping when they called. I was so surprised they really call me. I tried calling Malini during their lunch break, but she did not bring her mobile phone to the canteen. Sigh~.. I got kinda hungry at 3am, so i digged out biscuits to eat too. It's orginally the lunch break time, that's y i was hungry then. It's only day one of being jobless, n here i am complaining n missing everything. People only know how to treasure when it's gone.

To look on the bright side, maybe it's okay to leave them now. We would surely be in contact if i made the effort to sms them often. There's always time apart from work when we could go out together. Maybe, if i stay longer on the jod, friendship might turn sour. I may end up quitting because of some problems. I am digging my brain for some positive thoughts, but positive thought don't come flying through. I thought of buying food for them for their lunch break, as i missed everyone loads already. Sigh.. life have to go on. I don't really care about my result, which would be released next week, now. My mind is all about my colleague. I cant stop thinking about them...

So... all out there who saw this blog post, do think of the pros n cons before making any decision. Live a life without regrets!

2/26/2004 03:35:00 PM|