diarrhoea & friends~~

Monday, May 10, 2004


What would u get when u mix biscuits before jogging with water? I lost my stamina, n i cant finish my 30 minutes jog. I walked back after jogging for 25 minutes, n my stomach hurts. I felt like vomiting too. I felt so miserable. I did a bit of cooling down when i got home, n i ran to my dad's toilet to do business.. Argh... What happen next, u all should know. I felt so weak after that. I could only drink milo as dinner after that. Cant even type fast now.

Lesson learnt: Never eat anything before u do any exercise.

Since it's such a short entry, i shall add on more stuff. I felt kinda sad when i read my friends entry. I was like... very very upset that i don't get included in all e activities. I used to think that i have a kinda great life, with loads of big grps of friends.. but somehow, those grps of friends are not really as close as i think it is. Maybe i'm too sensitive.. but that's how i feel. Movie trip or things like that, i won't get considered usually. I WAS usually proud to tell my other friends about my 4A sec sch gang, and somehow, i thought we always have great fun together. But.. big grps of friends are like that, there'll be cliques inside. I don't belong in any. Hey.. those of my sec sch friends that's reading this, u all don't need to TRY to include me in if it's kinda weird. I got used to leading a kinda loner life anyway since i started working alone at my aunt shop.

For my JC's friends... we still could chat as per normal, but as what i've normally said, they got their own life. Some started to LOVE clubbing, which kinda scare me off a bit from what Olive wrote in her diary, and somehow, she gave me the impression that she prefer her work friend. I don't really know what is buddy anymore.

After "scrutinizing", i came to a conclusion of having.. maybe only 2 buddy, which are involved more with their own life too. They are Auntie Qi n Ben. Both are attached. Auntie qi with her many yrs of relationship bf, which is in army, which meant she'll have to spend weekend with him. Ben is in NS, n he have to leave most of his time for his ger too. Kinda pathetic eh..

That's e reason y i hate to have free time to think through stuff that are happening in my life. I tried to think uni as a fun start once again, but knowing that i would not have a class, i was kinda sad. I hate growing up! I hate having to go through graduation! I hate having new start! I hate losing friends! I hate finding myself with no friends! If i die e next day, i guess those that attend my funeral would come for e sake of it, n it'll be no loss to them anyway. Argh... guess it's best to get my mind preoccupied with something to think about.

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