God's will

Sunday, March 26, 2006


God's Will leave no choice... not for everyone i think... but for me... maybe because he knew whatever path i chose, it's gonna be a wrong path...

Since the time i accepted Christ, the path i walked through is all His Will. I went to a JC i hated at first, but great friends, had great teachers, and passed A level with an OK score. I went to a Uni which i don't want to go to at first, but just by missing out on 1 10marks question, i fell from the usual A to B.. and that causes me little choice. But, i got closer bonds with my jc cliques, i enjoyed friends, i enjoyed camp, i enjoyed e sch.

God led me this 2 paths... which i have absolute no choice. It started off badly, but ended off nicely. But, the starting process was really tough. It's a struggle. It's something i hated and never wanted to go through again. But, God seemed to do it again.

The power of God is great. When he answers ya prayer, he really ANSWERED. I rejected his answer, and chose to sink in a bit more, but, upon just a small prayer asking him for forgiveness and stuff... i got pulled out again.

He implanted someone else to that "someone" life. Someone who's going through what he went through. Someone of the same age. Somehow who he'll grow to become closer to.

I've cried many times due to this stupid thingy... it's like.. more than e time i cried for my ex. Miserable feeling. But, i would go through this. God always has his way around.. i cant question, i can only follow. He really wanted me to give up. To concentrate on studying... i knew he planned something else for me. I knew there is, but... i still cant help feeling sad. I need a way to numb myself. I knew i should read the bible, but.. i really wish for some space... it's just less than a week, n i became this weak. I MUST SURVIVE!

My eyes r wet, but i cant make it dry. I've totally lost control. I must find myself again!

3/26/2006 11:02:00 PM|