surrology

Wednesday, March 22, 2006


Ya know.. surrounding can change a person.. It can change how a person think... and it can affect the mood of a person too.. hmm.. power!

Here, the surrounding meant.. home. haha.

For me, i'm a nature person. I like scenery. I like to see the sky. I like to feel the wind at high places. I like to admire my surrounding. I like to think. I like quietness when i'm admiring e nature. I like to be in e nature.

I once thought this way: When i grew up, and really earned my own money, i wanted to migrate. To go to australia. To go to somewhere quiet. To live on a valley. To be near nature. The drive to work may be far... but the tranquility is worth it all.

At home, i found a great place to look at the sky. A place where i can sleep under the moonlight, and under the stars. It's great, really! I tried to find this place around my room, but, nah.. cant. Outside my window, there's some deco stuff which totally block my view, so i cant move my bed to get e best view.

Last night, i was going through some struggle. Struggle with my emotions, and feelings. Crying helps.. and it makes me tired too. I slept in the living room. On the sofa. I woke, and i saw the sky. The whole house was quiet. No voice, no sound, no people, only me, the stars and e moon. The feeling was great. It calms my heart. God sure knows how to implant little stuff to cheer me up. I woke feeling better.

I completed my present to e "someone"... and i felt great. It'll end everything nicely. Worried that i'll change everything if the present is kept with me, i bought the remaining gift and gave it to him. I told him to open on his bday, which is next wed. Until then, it's cooling down period.. I'll replace him, with God, the faithful one, although i'll still meet him. E feeling would die down, i knew it!

Felt so great. Felt i found another self i had. I don't regret what i went through. I thank God. He brought me out again. He gave me this peace, and he helped me recover fast. Without him, i might still be crying stupidly. I might still be in depression mode. I'm glad i read the bible. I'm glad His Words remain in me. I'm glad i'm baptised. I'm glad i'm a christian. I may not be perfect, but i'm tryin to be a better person.

From now on, living room is my another bed room. I've got 2 room!

3/22/2006 08:48:00 PM|