learn to control

Wednesday, January 16, 2008


Most friends asked me to ignore, and i ignore. But still, i feel i have to do something. Knowing how much i hate him, i still have to do something. Not to worsen matters, but to try to help. Who ask me to be a Christian.

Devil tells me to say this: He deserve this anyway. Harassing me still will cause me to be forced to report to the police. Unless you are thinking of changing job, stop disturbing me. Btw, i'm not scared of the threatening msges. It'll add on to evidence for harassement. I'm always truthful to my dar.

Angel tells me to say this: If you are reading this(you know who i'm referring to), the guy u r with WAS a bad guy who cant stay faithful, BUT, i can c that after going through many things with you, he really start to love someone deeply. Maybe at the start, his heart isn't fully with you, but it is now. What is past is OVER. past tense. Who doesn't have a past? Because of you, he sent me many threatening msges and called me umpteen times. I don't think this is even his style. He's super angry because he's afraid of losing you.

I know that for Trust, once breached, it'll be difficult to trust again. But, we learn as we grow. We get our "dessert" after our actions. Sorry without a sincere heart is not worth forgiving. Sorry WITH a sincere and repentant heart is worth to try and forgive.

He IS an ass to me, but he IS a sincere and might-be faithful man to you. Maybe, just maybe, he deserve a second chance.

I'm writing all this not because i'm obliged to. Not because i'm scared. Not because i felt guilty. Not because my dar will choose to believe an ass and my relationship will end. I write because i think i should react this way in what a Christian should do, instead of trying to explode the whole conflict by reacting in a hack-care method, gathering more evidence and waiting to call the police.

What i want to say is said. Cool off period, break it off or try again.. it's all up to individual. And please remember, you can be tracked down by just leaving a TAG~! I sincerely wish this intended post for a certain person can be read by her.