Mood of CNY isn't e same anymore

Wednesday, February 06, 2008


Day 1: sleep at home. Day 2: sleep at home. Day 3: possibly go out. Day 4: do FYP.

I'm starting to question.. am i even a chinese? Hmm.. It's like... as one grow older, there seems to be no more Chinese New Year. Some of mama's family went overseas. My mama went China with her mama, my maternal grandma. So, there seems to be no visiting this year. Maybe, just maybe, we'll go my auntie house on e 3rd day. Daddy side, think also 3rd day.. so 1st day, it's home sweet home.

Dar didn't invite me to reunion dinner nor to bai nian with him... Kinda sad about it at first, but ok after that le. At times, i can feel the distance from him. Hmm.. just maybe, we're not meant for one another. Time will tell. Only gonna c him again next wk.

Having nothing to do.. and the same situation for my maternal side cousins, i decided to go sell joss sticks with them. It's a boring job, but at least i'll have something to do. Earn some ang bao money too. I really don't want to do my fyp during this time. Kinda sad to think about it. Talking to my cousin lu makes me cry. It's like... it seems so sad this year. Sighz. Even talking with dad about it makes me tear. I hate CNY.

I wish at least there'll be company to keep me occupied for this long holiday. Maybe next year onwards, the entire family can just go for a holiday together. We can avoid this entire festive season.

Wishing all others, happy chinese new year.