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Monday, January 28, 2008


It's good enough that i help u registered.

Her tone was the "i-help-u-with-this-le-what-more-u-want" attitude. I was sad. That day, after finding prof to asked about the grouping matters, she went to IHUB saying she'll help me register. I thought i heard about her helping me to write the email to the prof. I REALLY think i hear it... so i rest assured, and let her handle all.

I was the last to register for the group for E&S class. Deep down inside, i knew i might not be in the same group. Since i was always in a class alone for so many semesters, i had a "relaxed" attitude. I really wish to be in the same group as them. But, knowing that it's not always easy to get what we want, i just do the minimum. I don't have the "fighting-for-it" attitude.

Today, they asked, did u send the email.. at first, i wanted to say.. i thought "she" send for me, but i remained quiet and say nope. In the class, they askedd again, and i just said that. She brushed me off with this sentence. I was hurt. Ms Wong always scolded me (in a good way) when i did not study.. and i really appreciate. This time, i was rather shocked with everyone's tone,especially "hers"(not ms wong) and i reacted without thinking.. without controlling my word.

I forgot the exact words i said. It's something like, not in the same group den nvm lor. I said in a pissed tone, as if i'm blaming them. I know it's my fault for not emailing.. but because, half-heartedly, i knew i might not be in the same group. If i really have to be in a different group, i will just accustome to it. I've been alone for quite some time too.

I'm really hurt by her words and tone. Sobz. Shun think too much into this. I need to get my microsoft office and start working on my resume.

Tuition is a joy at times. To see my cute Sarah's face.. Although she's irritating at times, but she's still my favourite student.