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Thursday, March 25, 2004


Argh.. I'm going to Hong Kong next month with my friend, her friend, n her friend's bf.. Meaning, i'll be the only person without a friend.. as i guess the couple would stick together. Argh.. I made alot of phone calls to Charlene, Xiuhui, Esther, Auntie Qi & Jilline and the answer i got, it's either, "parents don't allow, cant get leave or don't have money". Argh.. I'm sad.. I'm desperate. I die die also want to get a companion or else i would be a lightbulb. I don't want to be one, but at the same time, i don't want to give up this holiday chance. The only country i could afford to go to currently is Hong Kong.. n i really wish i'll not be left out, so i guess no matter what, i have to get a friend.

For this friend search, after asking so many of my "girl-friends", i came to a conclusion that it should be better to ask guys to go, as they don't have the parents consent problem. I thought about patching with my ex, Louis, as long as i can get someone to go with me. I bet he'll be more than willing to if i ask him to. Sigh.. my other choice was Andrew, a net friend since my J1 year. Really praying hard that he can make it. I don't mind sleeping in the same room with a guy. I was kinda worried that he'll c my ugly-wake-up look.. anyway, i don't look good after i wash up too... so i guess it doesn't matter. He's my only hope now. Wonder if he don't want to go, should i really resort to asking my ex?? Is it very stupid?? Argh..

Auntie Qi called me n chatted a while with me. SHe mentioned that if u go holiday, u would want to enjoy yourself since u pay so much already. I truly want to enjoy myself, but i'm not sure whether i would if i were left alone by the couples, but at the same time, i die die also want to go on a holiday. I've waited so long for this day.. argh.. Wish everything would turn out well for me.

3/25/2004 10:45:00 PM|