in love~~

Saturday, May 19, 2007


I never have a dream come true. Till the day that i've found you.

Guess friends might think it's too fast... or that i'm just finding someone to replace ryan in my heart, BUT NOPE~! This is totally different. The feeling i got. The chemistry. Maybe when we were friends, i've already sub consciously like him? He's always there for me when i'm sad. When i have the car, i drove him out and we go walk in the park. It was purely friendship between us, but still, i felt comfortable around him, therefore, he became my buddy.

He was a net friend i got to know during my Sec 3 IRC days. We chatted then, and met up before, but just lost contact. He is the one that indirectly influence me to go church. Back then, he told me how he serves in church. It seems so fun. His word is like opening a void in my heart. So, i went church finding, found a church, and now am baptised, but not devoted for a very long time.

WHen i was in France, he msn me, and we chatted. I had ryan den.. so my conversation with him is totally that of friend. We met up often to eat and walk. I teased him over gers... asked him to get a gf.. and do what friends always did to one another. We sms alot.. but purely as friends. We had e buddy relationship and i love his company.

After i broke off, i went out with him as buddy to walk and talk again. My mood somehow improved miraculously. Somehow, God seems to be telling me that there's no point being sad over a jerk. Hmm.. come to think of it, i don't even know whether there is love between us. Maybe it's just cause i was used to him and i did not want to have other bf? Anyway, we went out more often after i broke off. Our topics was not about my ex anymore. I felt so normal and recovered. I love being around him. Our sms-es got sweeter, and we just got even closer. The feeling was so right. I can confirm-plus-chop that I LOVE HIM.

Hmm.. weird eh.. i like him before too, but i know kinda impossible. I'm with him now, and i felt we'll have a future together. This time, it's a two-way relationship. He showed me e love i've never felt before, and i've always dreamt of. He's taller than me too~! I'm so in love with him, and i hope things between us would stay that way. I felt complete. Totally.

I have God, I have a family. I'll have my degree soon. I have a christian bf which would become my hubby. I'm complete. Life is GREAT~! I love my darling~!



God planned your life. Do not worry, and do not doubt. He had your interest at heart in all possible ways. Just wait, and receive. And remember to give too~!