friends

Saturday, April 08, 2006


Friends r ever precious to me.... nv nv would it change...

There's one period of time when most of my friends got attached, i was thinking bout this... "My turn would come... but then again... it's better to remain single. At least i can always be there for friends when they are sad. I can be for friends if ever they need company since i have no bf. hmm.. that seems so much better. I can be a really gd friend this way." Now, upon thinking again, it's really not that bad.

I value friend, but ... i'm lazy to stay in contact. I rarely did initiative to sms... Say for example, for my buddy sihui n wanqi, they are and always are my buddies... but... we don't usually stay in contact. It's like... when we finally got together that i felt e closeness remains.. I know they r there, but, i always make no initiative to do anything. I'm bad. I'm lazy.

I would do things for friends... things which are not that important actually. I love making friends happy, and REALLY REALLY i did not feign ignorance~! Every time when i said i don't know something, i REALLY don't know. Ya know, seeing friends laugh gave me a feeling that... i actually make a difference when i'm there. At least i added a little smile and laughter.

I'm a thinker... i would think through what i said. At times, when i said something, i would stop and "slap" myself. I don't dare to try explain because part of me wish that they din get e wrong meaning of it. Guess i would try to avoid saying e same thing. I'm worried i'll lost any friends due to what i said. I'm careful... and i don't want to be hated.

On dealing with my ex.. it's e same. I want to remain as friend with Louis, but i always got myself into troubles with all the patching. I wanted to remain friend with a friend that hurt me many times insensitively, and instead, i got myself into more guilts.

A friend that i somehow had a quarrel with... was really too hard for me to bear. E things may appear V V V little, and maybe with alot of misunderstanding... but it still hurts me because she's really changed so much. Her focus is so damn diff now. Pray that God would help her. I have to stop my sinful thoughts~! Someway or another, i don't want to lose her. I don't want our friendship to change.

So.. guess i've had to add another thingy to my thoughts previously."Remain sigle is good. I won't change den~! I would remain sincere and ever-present to my friends. I don't mind doing stuff for them. I don't want to suddenly become insensitive. At least this way, i'm with more friends, rather than A guy!" YEAH~!

Let's work hard together, dearest friends... Don't let stress get u down~!! Smile more...and tell yourself... "I LOVE STUDYING"!!

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