Monday, July 13, 2009
Xia's relationship turn out to be the same again. Same ending. The end. For a very long time, i have been trying to stay in a relationship. Feeling wise, it seems to have died down. I was just an empty shell, unclear of my next step. It always is a WRONG time. Exam period for him, period where he needs support. SIgh... In actual fact, he's a great guy. He bought me flowers, he made my cards, he listened to what i say, but there's just too many other differences between us. I cant share my prob with him. He will criticise me. I cant share my mentoring experience with him, cos he has his own experience, and mine always seems to be different and wrong. I cant tell him i went out late, as he'll start nagging. I have to sms him in the morning or at night, which i simply did it so as to stop his nagging. I'm becoming a SHELL~~ So, i've made up my mine. I wanted a new start. I wanted to lead my own life for some time. I need to sort out my thinking... what do i really want? Alot to ponder.. a lot to think... i'll try to do that during my jogging session. Being too rush leads to problem after problems... i hate having regrets.. |
1. To find a husband for Laffy 2. 3. To reach 58kg 4. To go holiday this year with darling 5. Wanna learn the piano, or organ at least? 6. To serve in church Benedict~~ Charlene~~ Charmain~~ Charis~~ Christine~~ Dew~~ Eileen~~ Fang Hui~~ Grace~~ Huiling~~ Jiahui~~ Jieshi~~ Jilline~~ Jun~~ Kaijing~~ Kaixin~~ Lim Yixin~~ Olive~~ Piao^yun~~ Ruiqi~~ Shirley~~ siewkim~~ Sihui~~ Sumin~~ Tingting~~ xiuling~~ yan~~ yiwei~~ short update another chance given Taking time off New Year Resolution IN need of assignment friendship lost Standard Chartered 2008 life's ok Sunday~! boring saturday |